Thursday, January 6, 2011

Positive Feedback

Yesterday I paid a visit to my new oncologist – what an angel…..and certainly someone of a complete
Different nature to the original donkey who gave my diagnosis.

Dr. Rika Pienaar is a extremely well known Oncologist and she specialises in the areas of my cancer. Why
I didn’t find out about her before – I don’t know but I wish I had gone for a second opinion by her.

On close examination she seems to think my main tumor has shrunk quite a bit but it has gone hard however.
This means either A) certain sections of the tumour are not responding to my type of chemo but the rest is responding well or B) When my 2 biopsi’s were done the needle has caused the tissue to go hard. If the answer is A it means I’ll need another kind of chemo to break the bastard down.

The other cards that have been laid on the table (that she would like to do) is remove the problem sources of cancer, Whack me with a short stint of radiation as well as a possible maesectomy (eventually). She seems very certain on the Process plan but I think It will take a while.

On chatting to my cousin shortly after my appointment (her mother sadly struggled a long battle of breast, ovarian and skin cancer) she asked how I felt about having a masectomy because I said it so ‘without worry’. I told her I would Have it done in a heartbeat without even thinking. I’ll do anything to better my chances – absoloutely anything. If my family had gone through genetic testing before all this I would have opted to lob the suckers off if I’d known I was so proane. One can always get new ta tas ;)

I know I have been very positive but the doctor has given me that little extra bit of hope ;)

Tuesday, January 4, 2011

A New Year - New Goals

Happy 2011 Everyone!!
May this be an amazing year making all your wishes come true!

"My Happy New Year wish for you 
 Is for your best year yet, 
A year where life is peaceful,
And what you want, you get.

...A year in which you cherish
The past year’s memories,
And live your life each new day,
Full of bright expectancies.

I wish for you a holiday
With happiness galore;
And when it’s done, I wish you
Happy New Year, and many more!!!"
So it's 2011 - 2010 came and went by so fast! so here I am hoping and praying that this is a year filled with better health for me - maybe even a year to hear that the crappy c is can certainly dream.
I have my first appointment with my new oncologist tomorrow. She's supposed to be the best ever and she specialises in the breast and liver.My original oncologist (not from the trials department) was a male who was cold as cold can be. I made the change because I feel I need somebody who is positive and warm. Somebody who I feel I'm not just another patient 2. You could say someone to believe in me and the progress I can make.
I went to a rock/ camping concert over new years with my boyfriend. We left late enough after having me rest and the agreement was as soon as I felt the least bit ill I could go home. I made it to new years and then we got stuck in a rain/ thunder and lightning storm....crap :( It gave me plenty of time to think what I want to achieve and gain this year.
On christmas eve I went and visited a new friend who I know through Nigel. She has just been diagnosed with bc and she was recomended some routine chemo. It was her first chemo that was being administered thought Ghroote Schuur and she was scared as ever. With all of this being a really familiar feeling I paid her a surprise visit with flowers, lollipops (for the yucky metal taste she would experience) and a survivor buff in case her hair fell out as well as some reading material. It meant so much to her that I came and visited her considering I had chemo the day before. It got me all thinking...I want to be part of something that empowers young women who are going through this. I want to let them know that it's ok and everything is going to be alright. Many people take one look at me and would never have thought I had cancer with my positive attitude. I want to be a positive example for others going through this....afterall...positivity is key. I Am going to have a meeting with a fellow Breast Buddy (support group) and see what we can do. Thats the number 1 thing | want to achieve together with getting better this year.
It seems as if chemo is taking a toll on my immune system becase I am picking up every bladey thing possible. Doctors think it's just because I have been on it for such a long time period. 
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